oh dear

I think I’m turning into a player…or at the very least a man.

I let M back in the fold and he is already asking me to go out with him again. he abruptly asked me out of the blue tonight in g-chat if I wanted to go bowling with him. I told him that I was on lock-down this weekend and couldn’t. I had work to do. He said he knew but wanted to blurt it out. I said I’d let him know. I can’t believe he asked me. Apparently, according to what one of my friends told me, he went and saw the GF while he was away on Turkey Day. I rolled my eyes at that but then shortly thereafter realized I didn’t need to care because…

I got this dude on the side and it looks like I will be going out with him for a little outing on Saturday. And get this…he asked me to go bowling with him, too! LOL. That’s a first. Two guys in one night ask me to go bowling. But you know, all the tomfoolery with M doesn’t phase me because I have options, too. Dude is really geeked at the prospect of going out with me and is willing to do whatever I want, which is a refreshing change. I have a feeling M is going to be alone this weekend and wants company. Too bad.

I feel like such a player. My friend at work encouraged me to enjoy all the attention and do what I want. That’s what men have been doing for so long anyway. Not that I want to play anyone but I’m not committed to anyone right now and I don’t have to worry about what M is doing. He can talk to the Concubine all night long if he wants to (she is still mad at me. M and I were chatting in the kitchen and she marched in, not speaking and looking all pinched up. Oh well), because I’m doing my thing too.

I hope I’m not fucking up my karma.

~ by J on November 27, 2007.