2008!
I did absolutely nothing for New Year’s and it feels great. I actually went into work and it wasn’t so bad because it was mellow and everyone was chilling. I alternated between gabbing with people, reading, and goofing off, all decked in my new jeans and my cute red shoes. I was feeling really good and it seemed to radiate that day. As I was walking around the street, people were smiling my way and being friendly. There was also a really festive vibe in the year so that helped. Last night, I went to Chipotle and saw one of the regular servers who waved at me and gave me a free bag of chips and guac.
On my the train ride home, I chatted with MF, one of Mark’s cohorts at work, who in spite of that association, isn’t half-bad. At least he talks about his girlfriend! And speaking of which, he opened up to me on the train and started telling me about his relationship and all of its challenges. I was a little puzzled and surprised that he opened up like that. He and I have always been cool but never really talked a whole lot. Sometimes I’m a little leery of him because of the Mark situation and I sometimes wonder what has been said about me between the two of them. Whatever the case, I wasn’t too concerned about that last night; I just listened to MF vent and vent and offered my advice. Funny thing is that Ricardo is always saying how people seem to like to open to me, like I’m their priest or something. I think people find me really approachable and warm. I’ll take that.
And speaking of Mark, I did end up traveling with him to go home. Not suprisingly, he he was flirtatious and texted me over the break. The interesting thing was was that I felt I really got a real glimpse of what kind of person he was. Although he tried to hide it, I could see his sullen ways, the unhappiness, the insecurity…Now at work, he hasn’t been avoiding me but has been trying to get int ouch with me on the internet computers by sitting near me or g-chatting me. This is also because I suspect his girlfriend his home for break and he can’t talk to me outside of work…LOL. what a hot mess. At work yesterday, when all of his cohorts were gone, he was sitting around all by himself, trying to pretend that he wasn’t looking for me around the room. I watched him and saw that uncomfortable demeanor again…wow. Funny that he was staying late instead of rushing home to be with the GF. I feel sorry for her, unless somehow in her mind she puts up with him because she thinks that she has hit some sort of jackpot. Ha! Cute looks only go so far!
Anyway, last night, I fell asleep before midnight but woke up here and there to read my friend’s lovely text messages for the new year. It was nice to just be in with no major expectations to do anything but not really feeling alone because people thought enough of me to include me in their New Year’s wishes.
This morning, I treated myself to brunch (a great suggestion by a friend) and read a little bit, which I’m about to do in a minute. And yes, I must work on something art-related. I’ve been remiss for far too long. Stupid boy distractions. Time to reconnect to what’s really important in 2008!
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